Happy to Be a Free Dog
But he answered and said, I am not sent but unto the lost sheep of the house of Israel. Then came she and worshipped him, saying, Lord, help me. But he answered and said, It is not meet to take the children’s bread, and to cast it to dogs.
Matthew 15:24, 25
Go not into the way of the Gentiles, and into any city of the Samaritans enter ye not: But go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.
I do not believe, if there is a god, that god would be an ethnic supremacist.
And Israel will take possession of the nations and make them male and female servants in the LORD’s land. They will make captives of their captors and rule over their oppressors.
For thou art an holy people unto the LORD thy God: the LORD thy God hath chosen thee to be a special people unto himself, above all people that are upon the face of the earth.
You [gentiles] do not support the root, but the [Jewish] root supports you.
Both thy bondmen, and thy bondmaids [slaves], which thou shalt have, shall be of the heathen [goyim] that are round about you; of them shall ye buy bondmen and bondmaids … of them shall ye buy, and of their families that are with you, which they begat in your land: and they shall be your possession … but over your brethren the children of Israel, ye shall not rule one over another with rigour.
Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
When you pray, don’t babble on and on as the Gentiles [Greek: “ethnikos”] do. They think their prayers are answered merely by repeating their words again and again.
I do not support abortion, slavery, infanticide, sex trafficking, or pedophilia.
Now therefore kill every male among the little ones, and kill every woman that hath known man by lying with him. But all the women children, that have not known a man by lying with him, keep alive for yourselves …
And the booty, being the rest of the prey … And thirty and two thousand persons in all, of women that had not known man by lying with him.
Numbers 31: 17, 18, 32, 35
Happy to Be Avoiding Snakes
And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them…
Mark 16: 17, 18
No, I cannot handle deadly vipers or drink poison without being in danger. Not that I know of, at least. It may be possible somehow, but I’ve not got reason to believe that right now, and even the people that do believe it, die when bitten (see pic and caption prior to this snake image). How did I ever claim to believe this?
My initial exit from organized religion was completed about 10 years ago. I came to a place where I could no longer ignore glaring conflicts between what I myself saw to be true in reality, and what those in the Christian religion told me I must believe.
I also figured I must trust my nature-given mind, logic, heart, and horse sense — which has kept me alive and on track thus far, more or less — over what a heavily edited compilation of old writings and some volatile pastors whose lives were a mess, were telling me.
The most salient realization I had at the time was: I could never intentionally eternally torment my son, even if he really messed up his own life and denied me. Was I a better “father” than God? So, I became something kind of like what a friend of mine calls a “Christ-leaning agnostic.”
I know most Christians reading this will probably quickly write me off as someone who “never really believed” or “never had the Spirit in the first place” or who “doesn’t really understand the Bible.” That can’t be helped. But I already know who I am.
I’ve read the Bible unceasingly, struggled in endless years of solitude and guilt and excruciating shame — endless mental (and sometimes physical) torment — over how to be “in God’s will,” so-called, and not be “bad.” I started prayer groups as a teen at my school, was mocked for publicly displaying my faith, and have even been baptized twice as an adult because some nutjob pastor told me it was done wrong the first time, at a different church, and that the “angels would just look the other way.” I was gullible. My heart was wide open. I went 7 days without eating so as to get to know God better, drinking only water. I gave myself to it 100%. So, whether religious folks believe me or not. I don’t really give a fuck. I know who I am and where I’ve been.
The second phase — and hopefully the final one — of my exodus from this dogmatic trap began just recently, through a strange turn of events that led me down that bramble-covered path that leads to things you’re not supposed to ponder at all — things like the Holocaust gas chamber narrative being false, and ideas about Zionist political ideology controlling societies globally. But that’s too far afield to get into here.
For now, let’s stick with the main thing: The Bible is full of gaslighting, crazy-making doublespeak. Basically, when you’ve been brainwashed, assumptions get into your muscles. You accept and ingest everything, simply ignoring contradictions and smashing the square peg into the round hole through extreme mental gymnastics. Getting out isn’t always as easy as “just changing one’s mind” in an instant. It takes a peeling away of the layers of the onion of deception — layer after layer. So, even though I threw away cerebral profession of belief in the Bible as literally true over a decade ago, much residue remains, even in my very viscera and thoughtless assumptions.
The religion itself is a poison snake in the grass. I’m just starting to come to terms with how much life and happiness it cheated me out of. I was vexed because the book is so full of contradictions, and I thought it was just my fault for not understanding.
The Poison Fangs Gaslighting Actual Thinkers
Two poison fangs: you are saved by faith alone but also you must do good works or lose your salvation and burn in hell. Two poison fangs: God is love but God also kills innocent people including infants and the unborn. Two poison fangs: God uses generational curses, but also God does not do this. God wants all men to be saved, but also not. Two poison fangs: children are born sinful but also they are not. Two poison fangs: Don’t resist evil and give away everything if asked, but also defend yourself and your property. Two poison fangs: All people are equal in Christ, but also the Jewish people are still the most blessed and will be served by Gentiles in the end after many are destroyed (Many Rabbis in Judaism openly state this while Christians intentionally ignore it). To be fair, however, this chapter seems to provide maybe a little schizophrenic hope? But, then again…
Two poison fangs: God loves little children but also will destroy the shit out of them for laughing and having innocent fun about some guy’s bald head (actually a pretty funny, stupid story). Two poison fangs: God is slow to anger, but also strikes people down for understandable mistakes and is insanely wrathful when people show human weakness. Two poison fangs: If you pray for someone and believe, they will be healed, unless you ask in the wrong way. Treat others as you want to be treated, but also you can beat your slave, and if he or she lives, you don’t need to be punished because they are your property. Two poison fangs: Christians say the end times are still ahead, but according to the Bible they were going to happen right away, AT THAT TIME. See here, here, here, here, here, here, and here (It is important to note Christ is not talking about “future people” in these passages, but referring to his disciples saying “you,” and that Paul says these last days). Two poison fangs: When/Where did Mary Magdalene first encounter Christ after seeing the empty tomb — here or here? And was she happy or sad? Two poison fangs: God is holy and not the author of confusion, but also CREATES EVIL and chaos intentionally. Two poison fangs: God hates liars but blesses Jacob for cheating his brother. Two poison fangs: God knows all, but gets angry when things he knew would happen, happen. Holy SHIT.
The list is virtually endless. Contradiction after contradiction. Wild stories. Historical issues. And not to mention even if we do accept it all to be true somehow, the God depicted here is a raging psychopath.
GIMME ALL THE MONEY BACK I EVER PUT INTO A GODDAMN OFFERING BASKET.
After all, if Christ is God as he said, then it was the Christ of the New Testament that was okay with this as well:
Now go and smite Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and spare them not; but slay both man and woman, infant and suckling, ox and sheep, camel and ass.
1 Samuel 15:3
And the child rape. And the slavery. And all the other evils we cannot even really imagine today in most societies of everyday folks. And why are Christians opposed to abortion, I wonder? “God” did that shit all the time.
Floating in Space: A New Creature
I will say, none of this means I rule out the possibility of a creator/intelligence behind existence. The absence of such seems to me unlikely. But as for the rest of this garbage, I’m out. Keep your chosen people myth. Even if it were true, in light of the above, I’d have to leave anyway.
I thought I was out before, but as I say…layers. I’m still processing it all. I’m no longer even “christ-leaning” except that I think we all have to be the “Christ” of our own lives. It may not make sense for those not coming from a religious background, but the cataclysm inside that I am feeling is really quite formidable. I feel a bit lost. Like the foundation’s been ripped out from under me, once again. I knew of these contradictions and problems before. But now I’m allowing myself to really feel and see it more. Strangely though, I also feel happy, and the exact same as I always have, but a little brighter, freer, and lighter.
A Couple Final Caveats
There are many wonderful passages in the Bible, but the contradictions and schizophrenia and disgusting evil of it overall render it useless as a cohesive whole “moral guidebook” or “spiritual authority.” It makes much more logical sense when it is viewed not as a “Holy Book,” but a book written by an ancient warring tribal people, Jewish insurrectionists (as the Jesus figure most likely was or was based on — and there were many at that time), and others, like Paul, with very real human agendas and conflicts in historical, religious, and political contexts. Also, it makes much more sense when it’s viewed as a book designed by humans to control and subdue people with fear. That it has done very well.
I also think John Lennon might have been onto something when he said he suspected the message of the Christ figure in the Bible, and the message of Buddha, etc., had been totally perverted over the years.
Many of the things that individual said to the religious leaders of the day, and how he broke the old laws with mercy (stoning of the prostitute story, disciples plucking grain on the Sabbath), and basically claimed to be God/one with God (blaspheming), were very cool. And I think there is much in that I identify with.
Still, the religion as it is put forth currently is complete garbage. No wonder I was scared of everything and so shame-ridden as a kid. I don’t need a “messiah” to know that if there is a “God,” he, she, it, or they lives in all of us. God is not a respecter of persons, right? A such, it is further interesting that Peter — having ostensibly been friends with Jesus — didn’t realize that he could eat with dirty Gentiles or that Christ’s message was for them too, until long after he had died. I guess Jesus just forgot to mention that stuff. But I digress.
And look at the untold damage and pain all this dogma has caused. That’s a whole separate post. It’s also helped to result in not being able to even question one specific so-called ethno-religious abstract collective of people in this world. I only judge individuals, but noticing patterns is not being bigoted. Anyway, I like who I am. No blessing through an ancient pedo-murder cult required. I’m still on my journey, but just for those interested, this guy’s videos are really breaking the cage doors for me, currently. I don’t always agree with his analyses, but he’s pretty damn sharp, and from a similar background. Start at the first one, if you do dive in.
As for the “why” of all this evil, I’ll probably be doing another post later. But basically, as always: statist/globalist/economic control.
Stray dog, out.